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Tuesday, 29 September 2009

Weight Loss Blog - Week 2, Day 6

Okay, so today it is going to say "September 29th" but I worked out on September 28th, making it the 6th day of the second week. Anyway, I didn't get any exercise yesterday (for the first time) so working out today was super hard. I could barely run a mile without getting really worn out. But I did the 5 miles (500 calories) plus 20 mins. of weights. So about 600 calories total I think. Anyway, I normally only do 500 per day but I didn't exercise yesterday so I will have to make up for it in the next 4 days (so until...Oct.2nd - or so Brian tells me from "real time"!) So until Oct.2nd, I will be doing ~600 calories instead of the usual 500 to make up for the one day that I didn't work out. So 100 extra calories per day for 4 more days.

So anyway, um...lets see, current weight is 157.2 lbs. That is pretty good for me. I am happy with!! But my goal will be at least 150 lbs. So what...like 7 more weeks of intensive workouts? Lol. Ouch.

As for eating...its still very random, but I maintain a certain amount of intake of calories everyday, without even thinking about it. That's what I love about my weight-loss plan. I don't have to worry about counting calories, which is just tedious and time-consuming, and I'll know exactly how many calories I'm burning each day. I think it's much harder to estimate how many calories you take in each day as opposed to estimating how many calories you burned off in your workout, so I just choose the easier route for now.

Today I ate...2 bowls of cereal, 1 bowl of vegetables with soy sauce/Schezuen sauce, 1 organic egg with butter, 1 piece of toast with butter, 1 cup of milk, banana, small piece of eggplant parmesan, and hmm...I think that's it. But I'll probably eat something else before I go to bed, b/c I'm still pretty hungry after that workout, lol. Oh yeah, and don't forget the importance of water. Stay hydrated!!

Sleep...last night I got excellent sleep. I felt like a million bucks today. I didn't start getting tired until like 7pm this evening. Anyway, ahh, it was such nice sleep. Wish I had that luxury everyday...but too bad I just have too much darn homework and studying to do.

Sunday, 30 August 2009

Angel Knocking on my Door

There is an angel knocking on my slightly opened door
"Why aren't you sleeping yet, child?" she said in my head.
She disappears when I glance towards her.
But I know she's just sitting right by my side.

O beautiful angel, of heaven and earth.
Whose hair is red like mine, even more splendor
With sparkles of tinted gold,
Of ivy leaf in your hair,
Of pink flowers in your hand,
You place a small one in my smooth hair.

"Dear Angel, you know I have a hard time falling asleep,"
"Won't you help me this once?"

And with her harp of silver color,
She played a gentle tune,
A whispering in my ear.
My eyes began to close.
My mind began to close.

Thank you, beautiful virgin mary
I no longer feel sad on this christmas eve
Thank you, beautiful angel
Who follows me day and night
It is you who helps me shine on others
It is you who helps me be kind to others

If you ever are in trouble
If you are ever sad
If you find you can not fall asleep

Do not submit and cry so somberly
Do not fall in slumber so lonely
There will always be someone to check up on you,
It's your angel,
knocking on your door.

Saturday, 18 July 2009

Body Breaking Down

One day my body will break down
And this blood in me will turn ice cold
I'll need a big and thick blanket to keep me warm
Will you be there when the blood in me stops flowing?
Will you be there when the bones start breaking?

One day this body will break down
And the blood will be so cold
And the bones will be so old
Will you be there when the pulse starts aching?

And my poor heart is aching, and my poor heart is aching.

Will you be there when the poor heart is aching?
Will you be there when my breath is taken?
Should you be here when my breath is taken?

I duuno if I could take it.

Thursday, 09 July 2009

Danielle (who stole the
window seat a long time ago) looked out the small

circular plane window and reflected upon the day and

night. Right now they were over the water but when

they were near cities, populated areas, or any

inhabited part of the land the beautiful array of

white lights from the ground filled her spirit with

delight, freedom, peace of mind, and beauty. And then

the large gap of space and land that always seemed to

separate them so severly was suddenly shattered. How

small the earth is, she thought. All this time I

thought I was a million miles away and yet in this

plane it is nothing but the size of an ant. But she

was foolish to think that anyway. She should have

known thatï¿ even if the mileage between them was

planets away there would always be a connection, and

they would always be together. Even if he died,

Danielle thought, I would still be with him. His

thoughts are my thoughts and we will always be

friends. Being settled with this sleepy thought,

Danielle was content. This was true happiness, she

thought. Not that fact that I'm meeting him finally

but that fact that we'll always be friends. Meeting

the ones you love is only a present and wonderful and

intimate privilege she would always cherish. And when

it was all over, she would not yearn once again like

she did. She would go back to her normal life and

normal ways and be just as happy, because no matter

what he will always be there with her. Danielle then

grabbed the next to her, gently layed her head back

down, and fell asleep.
All By Myself

I've been so quiet
I've been so alone
Lately I've been mad and angry
Without anyone to know

I'm doing this homework
Which seems to go on forever
I love it and I hate it
Pressuring me, pressuring me
Though now I have a task of my own

I may get no sleep tonight, it's true
As sometimes when I finally lay down
I wonder...could it be possible -
That I will not wake up?

Will my dreams steal my soul?
Will my breath stop in exhaustion?
It's scary, sometimes, you know.

I'll go back to myself now
I've been so quiet
I've been so alone
I'll go back to myself now
Without anyone to tell my, sorrows to.